Tuesday, 20 January 2009

8:06 pm: I MISS GRAND MA

Hello all,

I haven't been blogging for a long time, though, again. Sigh, ever since school reopened, I've been very busy. Well, if you have visited my blog, by now you should've known that I've changed my blog skin. Many people commented the old one is kind of em0, so.. yea. This should be a better one. =)

Moving on to how life was, hmm, I am really looking forward to reunion dinner!! I want to be back in my grand mother's house, with my auntie and grand auntie. I really miss my childhood a lot, though. Cause like I grew up in my grand mother's house, I had many wonderful memories left behind there. On schooldays, I'll only visit the place every Sunday, to visit my grand-auntie and my auntie. As for holidays I would occasionally go for a 1 week stay. On Sunday, after church, usual, went grand ma house, after dinner there, I went for a walk around the estate with my auntie. After having a nice walk, "sight-seeing" so called, cause the estate is like full of wonderful things. Haha. Went to see neighbour's dogs etc. After we came back, me and my auntie were sitting on the letch at my grand mother's house garden, talking. While talking, I ask my auntie why a pink-leaf plant was removed cause the whole plant fell off, cause the stem of the plant curled around another plant, as seen in the picture below.

* This photo was taken many months back in 2008.

I was like, aww, such a waste, cause only my grand mother knows how to plant that plant that way, no one else in the family knows. Sadly, she planted it when she was alive. So no one could plant it back, so sad. Such a nice plant. So my auntie told me she dreamt of my grand ma, she and my grand ma were walking and talking, talking happily. Then suddenly my grand ma ran, ran faster my auntie could run, and my grand ma fell. My auntie told my grand mother to be careful and take care in Cantonese. She got up, and walked down a marble staircase. When my auntie tried to walk down the staircase, she couldn't. No matter how she walked, she couldn't go down. She could not walk down to where my grand mother was. Then after that, she woke up.

She told me it was very painful to dream of my grand mother. She was crying. And it made me cry too. Cause I just miss my grand mother so much. Very much indeed. On the way home that day in the car, and for the rest of that night, I couldn't help thinking of my grand mother. I really miss the childhood days in my grand mother's house. The times that I dint appreciate much now comes with much regret. It's so painful to accept the fact that my grand ma has already passed away, though. Sometimes in life, certain things we have to learn how to accept, weather you like it or not, its reality. Take my grand mother for example, she has already passed away and could not come back to life. Even if you don't accept reality, you also could not change it. So this is something I need time to slowly accept. It's a big blow, I think. The family member that I love most is now gone. Every time I think of her, I would cry. I really miss the times when she always brought me to NTUC at the Bishan there, the times when I watch television together with her, the times she would often chat with me at night on the bed, the food she cooks, the dumplings she makes, all the things she does when she was alive, I miss them all. This is all past. In life, we have to put the past behind and move forward.

Okay, let's not talk about my grand ma anymore, it makes me feel more sad. Tomorrow afternoon before my piano lesson starts at 5 PM, I am going to tour those parts of Bishan my grand mother and grand auntie would often bring me, to find back some wonderful memories. Hope this would make me feel better, though.

School was sometimes good and sometimes unpleasant. I wouldn't say it was very good cause like this year a lot of teachers sucks. My Chinese teacher suck, My Maths Teacher suck, My English teacher suck to a certain extend. I hate changing teachers. IT SUCK. But never mind, the most important point is not how sucky the teacher is, but how SUCKY the class comm is. The people elected can't run the class, half of my class are ____ race (which I would not want to mention). They vote themselves and put themselves in power. TOTAL CRAP! I hate 2009 class. But never mind, I would very much like to see how many of them could make it back for 'O's next year. I am preparing my good-byes. I dislike them a lot. Those rude and uncivilised people. Okay let's not talk about them already. 1 or 2 are good, the rest.... YUCK!

Okay, I'll like to end today's post here, as I am going to eat dinner. The next post may take a long time to arrive, but be patient okay guys? I sincerely apologise if any of the content in this post offended anyone, but these are my personal view points. Don't take it to heart yeah?

Cheers,

Cephas

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